Due Date

Well I have a date for the op - Tuesday 9th October. Yikes! As co-incidence would have it it's five years plus one day since I had the mastectomy which made me realise just how long this road to "recovery" really is.

I've been thinking a lot about my cancer lately and wonder if it is due to the five year milestone. My over-riding feeling is one of frustration. I am frustrated in myself for not allowing the cancer to transform my life for the better. I feel like I should have cut out the toxic things in my life by now and the simple truth is that I haven't. I kick myself for not letting the cancer be the biggest ever wake up call and to sort my life out in order to spend more time with the people I love and doing the things I love.

I'm in the same soul destroying job I've been in for the last 15 years in an industry i've been in for the last 23 years and, really, if a cancer diagnosis doesn't give me the kick up the arse to change then what will?

I know I'm probably being too hard on myself but I want to live a life that inspires me and also inspires my children to be anything they want. I think I'll get this op out of the way then really kick on with #projectchange. Watch this space!

I'm a bit nervous about the operation but I am also really looking forward to seeing the results and being the most "even" i've been for years.  As rotten luck would have it my husband is in for back surgery on Friday 5th October so we have an army of helpers lined up to keep the house running as smoothly as possible whilst we both recuperate. I can't imagine how extraordinary difficult this would be without the support of family and friends. Thank you all!




Latest comments

20.12 | 20:45

Hi Dave,
Thanks for the kind words.
I did indeed work in North Cyprus back in the day - Turkbet?

18.12 | 11:06

Hi Donna, remarkable, uplifting and inspiring read.
Did you ever work in North Cyprus around 10 years ago?

15.10 | 17:15

Hi Donna, you are so inspiring. I have just had my 2nd mastectomy 8 days ago out of choice, first one was 5 months earlier as small cancer found.well done you

30.09 | 15:12

well done for finishing EPI!

I can't send a longer response on here but would like to share my experience of CMF at dvfox76@aol.com or the forum on macmillan.